Life in His Hand

Did I really sound so excited and enthused in my last post? Surely NOT feeling that way now! My trust in God is sorely being tested right now. My whole plan is crumbling....so I am praying for the Lord to show me what to do now. To show me His plan for me. Things really began falling apart on Thursday. On Friday, I decided to try to give it to God. At church, I asked for a prayer request during the service. I told them I needed guidance, wisdom and strength because I was stressed-out and had a lot of stuff going on in my life and was facing hard decisions. After prayer, it was time for special music. And God just showed up in an amazing way! He played "our song" to me, through a young guy that goes to my church. When I heard the name of the song announced, I just knew God was saying, "Don't worry, Johanna. I am here with you and everything is going to be alright. I love you". You see for the past three years, I was really struggling in the relationship. We...

Sometimes I go out on a dark and windy night. I see the moon's light and the shadow of the leaves and hear their rustling. I look at the stars and wonder. I feel so out of place. I am filled with longings that just hover over my soul. Not even able to name them. It's just a deep and mysterious ache for the ones I miss. The ones I long to see. The ones that are lost to me. It's a feeling that comes over me, sadness and yearning for what is missing, mixed with hope and wondering. I think of yesterday and I want to hold onto it. I keep pieces and treasure them and fit them together with hopes of what may someday be. There were people in my life that were so special and I don't know where they are. This song is the first song I have ever heard that matches the deep longings I have to someday find them. I heard it for the first time tonight and it goes out to those I've loved and can't be with. Maybe you can relate. Maybe you're missing someone - a close frie...

He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,  Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.  When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,  And I realize just how beautiful You are,  And how great Your affections are for me.  And oh, how He loves us oh  Oh how He loves us,  How He loves us oh  He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves.  We are His portion and He is our prize  Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes  If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking  So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss  And my heart turns violently inside of my chest  I don't have time to maintain these regrets  When I think about the way  And oh, how He loves us  Oh how He loves us,  How He loves us oh  Yeah, He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves.

If I could not hold a pen I would write of you on my heart instead You have bought me with Your blood  And I am painted red by Your love If I could not say a word My life would speak of love I don't deserve Hope means I'm holding onto you Grace means You're holding me too

                                                                                                                                                                                                  I don't know how I'm gonna tell you, I can't play with you no more, I don't know how I'm gonna do what mama told me, My friend, the boy next door. I can't believe what people saying, You're gonna let your hair hang down, I'm satisfied to sit here working all day long, You're in the darker side of town. And when I'm ou...

                                                                                           Sometimes every one of us feels Like we’ll never be healed Sometimes  Sometimes every one of us aches Like we’ll never be saved Sometimes When we’ve given up Let your healing come When theres nothing left Let your healing come Til were risin up Let your healing come Where You go we will follow Where You go we will follow It’s Your love that we adore It’s like a sea without a shore We’re lost in You, We're lost in You It’s Your love that we adore It’s like a sea without a shore We’re lost in You, We're lost in You Sometimes Sometimes it’s like we'll never atone For all the love we've known  Sometimes like in a smile of a song When you feel it come Then that feeli...