Life in His Hand

This year, like no other, I am celebrating my freedom. For so long I have wanted to be in this very spot, but couldn't be. For so long I wanted to be out of what kept me bound, but for one reason or another, it wasn't to be...until now. I hope you're free today!!!!

Stumbled upon a young guy's blog today and found inspiration. He listed the day as Monday. Said he didn't even think he'd been outside for two days... Then said something about not having much to write about. I commented that I liked his blog. It was short, simple and to the point. His real voice. I didn't say that. Then I went back a little further to realize this guy was a singer-making music all night, so that explained why he hadn't been outside for two days. Oops. I also realized that he had a Tumblr he uses more and likes to post pics. I commented again, letting him know I hadn't gone back far enough to see he did have stuff to say. Nevertheless, I liked his blog when he didn't have much to say. So what inspired me? His real voice. Who he was came through. Just earlier today, I was thinking about how I just really don't have a lot of stuff to write about. How people probably wouldn't want to hear about my daily happenings. They...

There is something that I believe God said to me many years ago. I asked Him a question. A very serious and heartfelt question. I believe He answered me from His word, directly. I know that may sound crazy to some of you, but I was a new Christian, in a desperate situation. The question I asked was so important to me, that I asked for His answer to me, to be confirmed in a dream. I prayed that He would tell me a certain detail, at a certain time, in a dream and it happened at the exact time I asked for. That was 10 years ago, this month. Yes it's been a long time. But the issue that I prayed about is an ongoing thing and so I have waited and doubted and waited and doubted. And waited and wondered. Throughout these years, I have prayed about this same thing many, many times, always receiving the same consistent answer in many different ways. A very consistent and obvious answer. But one I have to wait for. So that's what's been happening for the past 10 years. And life goe...

Another decision to make. There seems to always be another decision to make. And the problem I am having with that is that I am very...VERY indecisive. So today's dilemma is about a ministry that I got involved in several years ago. When I was wanting to reach out to people, I heard about a Christian (SDA) prison letter-writing ministry called "Someone Cares Prison Ministry." It was safe because you sent your letter to the ministry and they sent it to the prisoner and they did the same. You could also have a pen-name. They gave you helpful guidelines on how to write to prisoners. So I decided to go ahead and try it. I used to write letters to my cousins and had been writing "letters" to God in a prayer-journal for many years. So I thought...I can do this. I can encourage someone. And I wasn't naive about prisoners. The ministry is also very upfront with the prisoners. Wow, sounds like I'm about to tell you how horrible it was. But I'm not. There...

Lord I'm tired So tired from walking And Lord I'm so alone And Lord the dark Is creeping in Creeping up To swallow me I think I'll stop Rest here a while And didn't You see me cry'n? And didn't You hear me call Your name? Wasn't it You I gave my heart to? I wish You'd remember Where you set it down Chorus: And this is all that I can say right now And this is all that I can give Bridge: I didn't notice You were standing here I didn't know that That was You holding me I didn't notice You were cry'n too I didn't know that That was You washing my feet

In a few days we'll be heading down to Sacramento (about two hours away) for 'The Rock and Worship Roadshow' . The kids are PRETTY EXCITED !!! The band I most want to see is Tenth Ave North. One of their songs, in particular, really ministered to me this past year - Times - I'll post a video of it on here. I am so glad to go and sing along with them. Of course there is Mercy Me headlining. They're always good. Saw them a couple of years ago and several years before that. At the last 'Rock and Worship Roadshow' we went to, two years ago with Mercy Me and my favorite - David Crowder Band, my son's lung collapsed during Mercy Me (we were separated at the concert) and we spent the night in the hospital. I wrote some about that in -  "God Was Here" . He ended up having to have three surgeries (one a week later and two over the next year or so)!! So I am hoping this time to have a little less excitement for sure! You know the scary thing is i...

He is jealous for me, Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,  Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.  When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,  And I realize just how beautiful You are,  And how great Your affections are for me.  And oh, how He loves us oh  Oh how He loves us,  How He loves us oh  He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves.  We are His portion and He is our prize  Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes  If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking  So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss  And my heart turns violently inside of my chest  I don't have time to maintain these regrets  When I think about the way  And oh, how He loves us  Oh how He loves us,  How He loves us oh  Yeah, He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves us,  Oh how He loves.

If all music could be like this...I could be happy. *Having second thoughts about the above statement. That's not true. I just really like the song. Yes, I would get pretty bored if all music was like this one song! Sing a new song unto the Lord....if you need one the above is a nice one :)

My times are in your hand~Psalm 31:15

                     Discovered this song tonight. It just fits.                                                                                                    Even in the darkness                                     Even in the questions                                     Even in the times that                                     I'm not meant to understand               ...

He is jealous for me Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory And I realize just how beautiful you are  And how great your affections are for me                                                           We are His portion and He is our prize Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes If His grace is an ocean, we're all sinking So heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss And my heart turns violently inside of my chest I don't have time to maintain these regrets When I think about the way That He loves us Oh how He loves us